Hello. My name is Tara and although I will be 30 this year and have finished my master’s degree there are times I think I am the uneducated, naive 19 year old me. Self-doubt: The inhibitor of success. I realized that I am more confident when by myself without help. When I am surrounded by someone/something that can help me my confidence goes out the door.
Case in point: I worked in car audio and I was pretty damn good at it. I knew the products, the installation information, and I never messed up the install bays scheduling books (you’re welcome Josh…) But whenever someone more senior to me was present I froze. Information that I knew became information I thought I knew. I asked 1,001 questions that I had the answer to simply because I doubted myself.
I’m currently finishing an excellent book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” and there are some points that clicked with me and some ehhh… not so much. Maybe it’s because I am stubborn? The whole end of the book seems to be about realizing you’re wrong about everything in order learn from it. But am I? What if I’m not wrong? What if my answer is correct? My point is–life is too short to treat every moment as a teachable moment. So if you know your shit, you know your shit. Don’t doubt yourself.
So now that I’ve identified that self-doubt is probably what is refraining me from moving forward I need to work on getting rid of it. Now I’m not saying that I’m always correct–I just don’t think I’m always wrong. So one goal for this new year is to work on learning myself. What holds me back from being the greatest version of me? What lessons do I need in order to properly adjust my life to get to where I want to be? This is not my first moment of reflection–first blogged yes, but I’ve been on a mission for the last couple months. So if you have any ideas, tips, books, etc. Let me know!