I stopped my depression meds cold turkey. Yes I know I should have worked with my doctor. At my last appointment I expressed interest in beginning the weaning process and was told that patients should be “well” for a year before making that decision. Problem was—I was never well. I was better, but not well. … Continue reading When that second deity reaches out.
Is anxiety my diagnosis or is it me?
Is mental illness curable? I’m beginning to wonder. Every time I think I’ve got this my anxiety or depression pops up like “heyyyyy girl long time no see!” At this point I’m beginning to wonder if it will ever end or if this is just my new reality. Well not so new as I’ve had … Continue reading Is anxiety my diagnosis or is it me?
My journey to healing my soul
And that's the beauty of being in tune with oneself--all that matters is what feels right--not what others think is right.
I’m my biggest bully
Sometimes your mental health has to take priority. You won't have a choice. You can either keep making mistakes, being mediocre, and being ridiculously hard on yourself--or you can make a change that puts your mental and emotional well being first. Today I asked for my work to be reassessed. You know one of those … Continue reading I’m my biggest bully
I’m a big kid now!
Hello. My name is Tara and although I will be 30 this year and have finished my master's degree there are times I think I am the uneducated, naive 19 year old me. Self-doubt: The inhibitor of success. I realized that I am more confident when by myself without help. When I am surrounded by … Continue reading I’m a big kid now!
Conversations with my Kid: Malia (4) and the Ghost
Last night I was painting my nails, minding my own business. It was around bedtime so I tell Malia to get into bed. I forgot that I left our sock bin on the bed (for those who don't know what that is--it's legit a laundry basket full of socks that all 6 of us dig … Continue reading Conversations with my Kid: Malia (4) and the Ghost
Such a Gemini
Gemini's are typically seen as the trouble makers of the zodiac world. By nature we have two different personalities that can be polar opposites. I am probably the best example of a Gemini there is. I have such a difference in personality I have come to terms that I will never be able to explain … Continue reading Such a Gemini
Conversations with my Kids: Maya & Cheer
Maya--Conversation 1: 7th grade Cheer
Not for happy people
No one reads the dark. I don't blame them. I'd be afraid to sink into the dark too if I wasn't already here. The only ones that read the dark are those that recognize it themselves. They are familiar with it. Almost comfortable. Being here means you've recognized you're alone. There's no magic fairy going … Continue reading Not for happy people
Help or get the hell on…Don’t judge me.
Clear minds prevail. This is one of the few tidbits of wisdom that works as my mantra. That and karma needs no explanation. Sometimes knowing that doesn’t help. It is in those moments I know that my depression has taken over and this is not just another bad day. Because a bad day I can … Continue reading Help or get the hell on…Don’t judge me.
My Unapologetic Messy Mind 