Is mental illness curable? I’m beginning to wonder. Every time I think I’ve got this my anxiety or depression pops up like “heyyyyy girl long time no see!” At this point I’m beginning to wonder if it will ever end or if this is just my new reality. Well not so new as I’ve had … Continue reading Is anxiety my diagnosis or is it me?
Not for happy people
No one reads the dark. I don't blame them. I'd be afraid to sink into the dark too if I wasn't already here. The only ones that read the dark are those that recognize it themselves. They are familiar with it. Almost comfortable. Being here means you've recognized you're alone. There's no magic fairy going … Continue reading Not for happy people
Spilling my darkness
I doubled my depression meds and was capable of functioning today. I decided while I'm able to function I should find some advice, something relatable, just SOMETHING for when I go there again. Because I will. Depression is an everyday battle. Most days are good now thanks to my medications--but some days are so bad. … Continue reading Spilling my darkness
Cheetos and weight loss: VSG (non)update
MMMbop. Bip-a-top. I dooo-wop. Do-wop. I doooo-wop bip-a-top I doooooo...
Balancing my Circle
I want to write today, not about any particular topic, just write. The kids are on summer break and I am losing my mind. I’m currently in my 1-week break between terms for school. My weight loss has stalled. My mental health has stalled. Everything seems to be ehhh. But I’m happy with that. I’m … Continue reading Balancing my Circle
My “other” dark monster
So let’s talk about the other dark monster. I tend to avoid the subject of depression as it’s not as “cool” to talk about as anxiety. First I’d like to differentiate between MY anxiety and depression. My anxiety is what kept me up at night. It made me angry, bitter, quick reacting, and long regretting. … Continue reading My “other” dark monster
Anxiety is not a personality trait
Ooops. Apparently I can’t commit to shit.
Anxiety Attack. It's been so long.